javs blog

i thought it was just cars passing until i read shane’s post about thunder and lightening.

i dont know why i go places that i know arent going to be fun.

obsessed with these songs currently:

“fine + two points” ~ minus the bear
“heard ‘em say” ~ kanye west
“roses” ~ kanye west
“empty picture frame” ~ jets to brazil
“grace kelly with wings” ~ piebald

moving into a studio on saturday. im so anxious about it that im in a very bad mood all the time. very irritable. edgy. its affecting my work. i dont sleep. i go out needlessly.

i want a laptop really badly, so that i can write music on it.

speaking of music, started a new band with some kids. its crazy.

saw the kid who i wrote the last post about at the bar tonight. he looked at me and looked away. what a fucking idiot.

if i could go back in time, id punch you in the fucking mouth. fuck you for being so short sighted. yeah.. youve been doing hair for like five minutes.. how the fuck do you know that vidal sassoon is the only system that matters? pompous, arrogant FUCK.

i cant remember my dreams when i wake up. well… sometimes. but very rarely. for a long time it made me think that i didnt dream.

i wrote a poem about last night. i dont usually write poetry.

sitting on the hood of a car
waiting for the next falling star
all my problems seemed to be so far
fuck… im glad i didnt go to the bar

STILL obsessed with my ipod. i have over 13000 songs now, and STILL have room. i took over 4000 songs off of stephanie’s laptop today. made me happy.

STILL homeless. i’ve been homeless before. looked at a studio today. didnt realize my credit was SO fucked. STILL sleeping on couches. sleeping on a bed actually is less comfortable to me.

STILL love doing hair. every day this week, in the middle of doing a haircut, i said to myself, “i really love doing hair”. almost 10 years. amazing.

STILL don’t have a stereo in my car. it got stolen on father’s day 2006. a couple months ago, mark jerry rigged it so that my ipod could plug directly into the speakers. two weeks ago, my dad installed a new one, and driving home from his house, it stopped making sound. STILL had power, just no sound.

STILL have unbelievable pain in my jaw. the other night, i took two tylenol pms at 10.. woke up at 330 cause it hurt so bad. took another one. couldnt go back to sleep. took half a norco. STILL didnt go back to sleep until 630. woke up at 9.

STILL ILL